Where do you live. I am an adult male living in midwestern U.S. Romantically, I am only attracted to TG women. I don't know why and I don't care; I smpily follow my instincts and desires.
I've been the angry guy with a shitty attitude in a public place with my girlfriend before and it's overwhelmingly because she insists on having the conversation there specifically, not necessarily because I'm a complete douchebag throwing a temper tantrum.It sort of strikes me as odd that you're in your mid-fourties and still volleying with this idea that good women always fall for crappy men.
I am five nine and one forty eight. I am an artist= runner type. Mid aged and physically and mentally balanced. LIke you I love writing poetry and discovering something within myself.