I always wanted a wedding I know it sounds scary but here is my idea its very simple me in a Victorian red lots of cleavage and shoulders gown we would do it in a lake with a medicine man taking our vows  if you don't know what a medicine man is look it up it comes from my culture I'm native there would be logs with cushions for people to sit on candles all lined up to guide us down to the alter very simple done at moonlight  and a song by shania twain you've got a way now I know that seems impossible not many guys my age would want that  I fall for musicians awkward sexy and the funny guys in the wedding cards would be joints lol and we would eat traditional native meats and foods a feather in my hair its kinda really hard to meet guys in person right now so after a few conversations over the phone and then slowly progress to meeting in person I hate the way this world turned out and it could have bin anything and this is what were left with  I'm still in shock as to how my identity is threatened by humanity culturally and spiritly  but I'm optimistic and give a lot of love free love because we need more good souls out there  colonization has impacted deeply in the way things work I often wonder what it would be like if our beliefs and our way of life had continued to thrive